Just A Thought

We all make plans, and sometimes those plans we make happen, or they never truly do. We get disappointments and the cycle of living is indeed that way. One day you're happy, the next you no longer know what to do.

It is in the deepest silence of our hearts that we could truly identify what's aching and what needs to be bandaged and repaired. But, no matter how hard we try to bandage those things ghosts will still haunt us in our core.

Memories can never fade. Memories are mere memories stuck in the brain waiting to be recycled and thought of again. I think, we are trap in this cleverness that no matter how much we try to press the delete button in our heads, it's never going to happen.

Along the way, we find temporary happiness, and temporary happiness finds us too. We swallow into the fun and don't give a damn because we've been badly scarred many times. We smile, we laugh, we do the regular things but when we are on our own, memories creep in. We judge ourselves for our lack of understanding and the lack of courage to just choose to move forward.

We get stuck in the idea of letting go and change.
We get stuck in the idea of moving forward.

And we realize that those things are just there as "pure ideas."

Only to find out that after the long run, we are still standing still. We've become that immovable wall waiting to be broken and pushed. No amount of alcohol, smoke, or loud music can break the sadness, the pain that's locked up inside.

The restlessness of it all is that, as night comes, we find ourselves in the confines of our own thoughts. Drowning. Clamoring for air. Anxious to be saved.

It's sad to think that time can make us victims of our past; that time can enslave us of our present moment/s. It corrupts us of our ability to think for the future and hope for the best. But at the end of the day, choice is still the thing that matters.

As the day progresses, the "pure" idea of moving forward is slowly building its foundations and we find ourselves learning our lessons. Bit by bit. We are slowly coming to terms with ourselves. We are slowly accepting every bit of flaw we have in our soul---past, present, and future. And the most important lesson is: Happy moments must always be noticed and bad vibrations neglected and thrown into segregated trash bins of life's crap.

The past will always be there to haunt us. It is always up to us to choose if we are too stupid to leave, or too stuck up to move on with things that came and will come our way.

Moving on and letting go are the two hardest lessons we must practice every single day of our lives. No matter how much we deny it, we are the person we are at present because of the experiences we've learned in the past. Just the same, we will be the future versions of ourselves who created a beautiful present.

I have come to terms with myself that in life, each waking moment is a chance for us to recreate ourselves anew; a chance for us to become the better versions of ourselves. That each beginning is always a continuation of something that ended and that the story will always be scary and daunting but very hopeful and adventurous.

With a light heart, we take with us the lessons of the past and finally choose to pick the pieces and tape them all back together. We must always strive to get that footing back after being broken into a million pieces.

A shattered individual will always attract more shattered hearts. The cycle will repeat itself over and over again until this person finds himself/herself as the victim of the situation for the nth time.

Let's not involve anyone in the process of fixing ourselves because we would always end up destroying the beautiful light shining through that other person.

We are wonderful individuals, you are a wonderful being! A someone who deserves a better chance or better chances in life's wonderfully made stupidity. Don't hang on to the past, the past will cling so tightly that it's hard to let it go. Like a boy begging for his mother not to leave for the grocery.

The past is a wonderful chance for us to re-evaluate our present moment, our future beginnings and happiness. All we have to do is to trust the process and the flow of life's energy that everything positive will come to us in the right place, right time, and right sequence.

So, to you my friend, who's trying to move forward, the journey is indeed long and it is filled with so much tears and unexpected joys. Be receptive to your feelings, honor them, and take good care of them. At the end of the day they are the only ones capable of telling you what's best for you, be it in relationships, or your job, or your family, or decision making.

Life is indeed filled with ups and downs. Sometimes, there are just downs pouring all over the place, but know that light will shine and ups will be attracted again to your wonderful life.

I love you, I send the pieces of bandages from my broken heart to your shattered soul. We'll get through eventually.